im not okay..
but i wont give up..
defnitely wont..i'll win my war..
when i smile..my heart aches..
thn i'll burst into tears..
i'll broke down anywhere anytime..
why my love story have to be so dramatic?
like the story we've seen in dramas..
i just hope i'll have a happy and peace love that lasts..
a wave pass..but another wave came again..
i blief everything will be in the way i want..
i have to blief in myself..
SURE!!

Nothing's gonna stop my love for YOU

学生护士的生涯很有规律的，到现在我还很想念那时後的生活。早上起来，早餐就在医院的食堂解决，然后就是 到医院的礼堂做礼拜。当然不是礼佛三拜加问讯，是向上帝与耶苏说哈罗半个小时。早晚各半小时的祈祷会就是槟安的最大特色。只要你不是回教徒，这些祷告会都 是一定要参加的。课程中，我们每个星期都有一堂的圣经课；上课时，我都像鸭子听到雷声，听无。测验时都是作弊过关。除了作弊，我真的是别无它法。学院是规 定我们要祷告要念圣经，但不会强迫我们信奉基督。虽然我不能掌握圣经种种，但我却有机会去认识这个宗教多一点点。是不是很好？
早上祷告会过后，就是上课时间一直到午餐，午餐一小时过后又上课到下午五点。我们上课的情形是；讲师讲讲讲，我们听听听，慢慢的就是身体在，脑电波却去跟 周公的电波相应。这个是难免的，因为我们一堂课差不多三到四个小时。只有听课时会打瞌睡，但是在实习室（skill lab）里,我们却又神龙活虎的。因为在lab里面我们学习如何照顾病人，比如整理床铺、清洗病人、洗伤口、包扎伤口、CPR等等等等等。。。
一天课上完後，我们有两个小时时间是自由的，然后7点又要祷告了。七点半到晚上十点是自修时间。这个时候，我们真的要自修念书，做功课，home dean 会时不时来检查，看看我们有没有在用功。


see that? =.= i copy it from a forum..
that is what my life going to be if ADVENTIST accept me..
college life..T-T my dream..no more..
at least have to pass that 3 years..
i failed to convince my parents..
i surrender..or else more argument will make them send me to F6 =.=
thats more terrible..
should i tell them im a muslim xD cause its way boring reading bible..
not interested at all..0.0 but sure i respect GOD..
i think i have class everyday too T-T
only weekends i have my free time..
wuwu..
well..im planning..if..IF they dont accept me..
thn i'll go to KDU 0.0..
hehe..but im not sure i whether can graduate there..
coz im afraid i will end up playing all day =.=

xD woo~i love twilight..
edward was soo cool..love him
i was reading the 2nd novel of it..
T-T edward left..
Bella was having a hard time..
im too into the story..x)
makes me staying at home for complete 5days..
=.= i never step out of the house..
i was so hardworking..wanted to finish them..hehehe..

i like vampire stories~movies~
weird huh :)
examples of movies i watch ~:




Queen Of The Damned~




VanHelsing~




Underworld~3 episodes of them




Moonlight..it was a drama..but seems like it stops
on season1 T-T..no more season 2?




This is cool..i watched 4 seasons of it x) nice...
besides horror movies..
DESPERATE HOUSEWIVES was my favourite..xD
even they are 'old' but their body are hot T-T not like mine..




c ya~goin to continue my story..xD

february 18th..
last year..on this day..i experience the most SAD thing in my life..
breaking up with my bebe..
i cried everyday..every single day..
watever i do..i juz keep missing him..
flashback keep playing in my mind..
i cried when im goin to bed..
i cried when im waking up..
i cried when im taking my bath..
i cried when im waiting for my bus alone..
i've live life like that for six months..
during that six months..i never give up on him..
=) proud of myself for being so 專一(anyone can tell how to say that in english?)
but at last..i had him back..
its worth to live life like that for 6months..
im happy now..full of enthusiasm to him..like before..
hehehe..i broke his record xD
before..he never had a gf more than 3months..
guess what..we've been together bout 2years..
its a good start..
i'll have him in my life from now..to my very lasst breathe..
Definately...

there's no impossible to anything..
if u work hard and never give up..
something good will happen to you..

by the way..friends are very very very important in our life..
cause friends are forever x)
they were by my side when i need them..
and i love them very much..
sorry..i want to apologize to my frens here..
im always late to reply massages..
and im not caring..
but i still love you guys =) muaxx..

T-T i wanna go KDU..
i wanna study my nursing course there..
it also have degree programme..University of Hertfordshire Bachelor of Science (Hons) Clinical Nursing..
my parents said that kdu is not good enough..
they wanted me to go ADVENTIST..wuwu
its not that adventist is bad..its just...........
i have to live in its hostel..T.T
i heard that the life there is discipline..
no going out during weekdays..
no freedom as i thought i will have in college life..
you know..3 years life like that T-T..
if im in KDU..its different..
i too get to study till bachelor of degree..
and i can have my freedom..
and adventist dont have degree programme..
i have to find it again after diploma..
aww..how am i going to persuade my parents?
im not giving up fighting for my freedom =)
but im not good in debate =.=
have to practice many times before persuading my parents..
I like studying in penang island..
i like there..when i was small..
i dream of studying in penang..xD
Izzit KDU that bad?
but i think its ok..as long as its certs are accepted by the government..
i can become a registered nurse..right?

sooooo......GOD >.<
PLEASE HELP ME

15/2 the day after VALENTINES..

First time in my life..i spend my valentines day with my bebe x)
bebe..hehe..i know abit geli =P
but i like to call him like tat a..
well..about 11:30am..we went Ice Ice Baby..
when we reach there..T-T i saw it hangin CLOSED..
i was sad..i tot i cant have my strawberry sundae..wuwu
But~im lucky..hehehe..when we're thinking of changing our plans..
The cute waiter came to the door..and turn over the sign..WELCOME xD
hoho..i ordered one watermelon smoothies n strawberry sundae x) << icecream lover
my bebe ordered 4 stuff..0.0 geng..haha
After that we went Sunway for movie..
EDEN LAKE..!!
OMG..tis movie too violence..=.=
Imagine a bunch of teenagers killing ppl like tat?
i cant forget the scene they burn a boys head..OMG
it freaks me out..=.=
YUCK..
hmmmm......
my date on valentine's end after watching the movie..
T-T its fast..time flies when im with him..
though there's not romantic at all on my valentines day..
but i'm feeling happy xD..

GOd..please..i would do anything for that..
you know what i mean..THAK YOU~

Wednesday..2/11

Today..another ordinary boring day =.=
woke up at 9am..bath..thn fetch mom~dad~n bro to work..
after tat went to TESCO..on my own T-T
went shopping..to buy ingredients..for curry..
i cooked prawn + vegetables curry..erm..ok ok la..xD
i know..it dont look yummy xD..

Yesterday..my bro took off his braces 0.0
He tot tat he would look handsome after he took off his braces..
................but then..when my mom saw him xD ~~
mom:u look nicer whn ur braces on..now u look like chip and dale..
OMG..chip and dale..they are so cute..tis did not suits my bro anyway..
king kong suits him more =.= juz king kong x hav rabbit teeth.. xP

erm..izzit ok to write short passage?
i've seen other blogger..they worte long stories 0.0
their live full of color..but mine..boring..~~
i think the rest of my day..i'll spend it on reading books and watching tv =.=
im like a rubbish..nth to do..sleep eat play..my daily routine..

Last nite..when im goin to sleep..
i find out a serious problem of myself =.=
its killing me..
im abit abit mentally challenge(憂鬱症）
its like tis..
when thr is sth im gonna do on friday..like if i need to buy a ticket for tat..
well..its ok if i buy on tat day..before im goin thr..
but last nite..i cant sleep..i keep thinking bout..if the tickets are sold out..what can i do T-T
bla bla bla..many more IF..

GOD PLS BLESS ME..IM A GOOD PERSON..
PLEASE~THANK YOU
PLEASE LET MY WISHES COME TRUE..

I forgot my previous blog's password 0.0

aw..i change blog again..
not becuse im so pro blogging =.=
its because im so good at forgetting my ID n PASS..haha
know why im so free blogging here instead of playing my favourite online games?
hehehe..its bcoz i made my dad mad..
well its not my fault..
its the game's fault..y U bring virussss to my pc?har?
U c..my dad was so mad..thn he says:NO MORE RAN ONLINE!!
DAMN u..GM..please fix this problem..xD
no gaming life...hmmm...boring..
but i feel myself more healthy since then..
becoz im not sitting infront of the pc all day long..
i get to do other things..
improving my cooking skills ..
paise..though i like to cook so much..
but wat i produce =.=..not good..
PLS dun tell me i dun have potential at all >.<


BLESS ME!!