我身边的每个人..他们的人生都一直在前进
只有我还留在原地..
看着他们一个个从我身边走过..
当你发觉你以往好朋友的生活里不再有你的影子..
多少会有一点感伤..
大家选读的科系不一样了..相对的..
话题会少..朋友圈子也会不一样..

缘份始终很奇妙的东西..
我在我的新环境历试着寻找一好知己..
可是那里有那么容易呢..
我才发现不是每个人都能当好朋友..
也许我只是在寻找她的替身？
她现在有自己的圈子了..
不再像我们中学时期那样..

当然..很自然的..我们的话题少了..
我当然很想回到过去..
不过现在我也没有可以去加入他们..
只是偶尔联络联络..

莎士比亚说：
再好的东西都有失去的一天..
在深的记忆也有淡忘的一天..
该放弃的决不挽留..
该挽留的决不放弃..

不过我也明白自己的个性..
比较孤僻..
又麻烦多多..
哈哈..

很久没有上网了..
最近都忙着打工赚钱..
家庭状况不好..要读college就要自己赚钱..
快烦死我了..haiz..如果赚不够就得明年一月才报名..T-T
就算借PTPTN也要筹第一semester tuition fees还有register fees..
有点羡慕我的朋友们..xP
不用为学费这么烦恼..
不过对我来说也是件好事啦..哈哈
至少不会再是以前那个温室里的小花..
我算还好了咯..有的人还比我更惨..

现在在餐厅打工..
好像在玩真人版的BURGER SHOP 0.0
waa..星期六星期天晚上..那个菜但是不停的来..
看到都手软..想逃之夭夭..xD 我想表姑一定会杀了我..
本人不敢讲话..哈哈哈..是大家都知道的..=P
所以总是喜欢躲在厨房..
晚上时偶尔会出去露露面啦..
因为晚上会有lengzai来yamcha..~
中午的时候uncle aunty 比较多..而且喜欢问东问西=.=
我的工作时间是每天10am-12am..你说累不累..
由于是亲戚..能帮就帮..而且才开一个月..还没完全上道..
~.~我的工作内容包括（扫地,泡水,cashier,摆盘,waitress)
每天还要算账..总之什么都要帮..
不只是我一个人这样xD那边的工作人员都是..
时薪rm3..erm..是少了一点..

表姑呢..是我的偶像..
他独立抚养两个孩子..
现在开了一间餐厅..鞋店..格仔店..开鞋厂自己设计鞋子..
现在正考虑要开多一间迷你火锅店..厉害！！
我能像她赚这么多钱就好了~xD

加油~赚钱~>.<

im not okay..
but i wont give up..
defnitely wont..i'll win my war..
when i smile..my heart aches..
thn i'll burst into tears..
i'll broke down anywhere anytime..
why my love story have to be so dramatic?
like the story we've seen in dramas..
i just hope i'll have a happy and peace love that lasts..
a wave pass..but another wave came again..
i blief everything will be in the way i want..
i have to blief in myself..
SURE!!

Nothing's gonna stop my love for YOU

学生护士的生涯很有规律的，到现在我还很想念那时後的生活。早上起来，早餐就在医院的食堂解决，然后就是 到医院的礼堂做礼拜。当然不是礼佛三拜加问讯，是向上帝与耶苏说哈罗半个小时。早晚各半小时的祈祷会就是槟安的最大特色。只要你不是回教徒，这些祷告会都 是一定要参加的。课程中，我们每个星期都有一堂的圣经课；上课时，我都像鸭子听到雷声，听无。测验时都是作弊过关。除了作弊，我真的是别无它法。学院是规 定我们要祷告要念圣经，但不会强迫我们信奉基督。虽然我不能掌握圣经种种，但我却有机会去认识这个宗教多一点点。是不是很好？
早上祷告会过后，就是上课时间一直到午餐，午餐一小时过后又上课到下午五点。我们上课的情形是；讲师讲讲讲，我们听听听，慢慢的就是身体在，脑电波却去跟 周公的电波相应。这个是难免的，因为我们一堂课差不多三到四个小时。只有听课时会打瞌睡，但是在实习室（skill lab）里,我们却又神龙活虎的。因为在lab里面我们学习如何照顾病人，比如整理床铺、清洗病人、洗伤口、包扎伤口、CPR等等等等等。。。
一天课上完後，我们有两个小时时间是自由的，然后7点又要祷告了。七点半到晚上十点是自修时间。这个时候，我们真的要自修念书，做功课，home dean 会时不时来检查，看看我们有没有在用功。


see that? =.= i copy it from a forum..
that is what my life going to be if ADVENTIST accept me..
college life..T-T my dream..no more..
at least have to pass that 3 years..
i failed to convince my parents..
i surrender..or else more argument will make them send me to F6 =.=
thats more terrible..
should i tell them im a muslim xD cause its way boring reading bible..
not interested at all..0.0 but sure i respect GOD..
i think i have class everyday too T-T
only weekends i have my free time..
wuwu..
well..im planning..if..IF they dont accept me..
thn i'll go to KDU 0.0..
hehe..but im not sure i whether can graduate there..
coz im afraid i will end up playing all day =.=

xD woo~i love twilight..
edward was soo cool..love him
i was reading the 2nd novel of it..
T-T edward left..
Bella was having a hard time..
im too into the story..x)
makes me staying at home for complete 5days..
=.= i never step out of the house..
i was so hardworking..wanted to finish them..hehehe..

i like vampire stories~movies~
weird huh :)
examples of movies i watch ~:




Queen Of The Damned~




VanHelsing~




Underworld~3 episodes of them




Moonlight..it was a drama..but seems like it stops
on season1 T-T..no more season 2?




This is cool..i watched 4 seasons of it x) nice...
besides horror movies..
DESPERATE HOUSEWIVES was my favourite..xD
even they are 'old' but their body are hot T-T not like mine..




c ya~goin to continue my story..xD

february 18th..
last year..on this day..i experience the most SAD thing in my life..
breaking up with my bebe..
i cried everyday..every single day..
watever i do..i juz keep missing him..
flashback keep playing in my mind..
i cried when im goin to bed..
i cried when im waking up..
i cried when im taking my bath..
i cried when im waiting for my bus alone..
i've live life like that for six months..
during that six months..i never give up on him..
=) proud of myself for being so 專一(anyone can tell how to say that in english?)
but at last..i had him back..
its worth to live life like that for 6months..
im happy now..full of enthusiasm to him..like before..
hehehe..i broke his record xD
before..he never had a gf more than 3months..
guess what..we've been together bout 2years..
its a good start..
i'll have him in my life from now..to my very lasst breathe..
Definately...

there's no impossible to anything..
if u work hard and never give up..
something good will happen to you..

by the way..friends are very very very important in our life..
cause friends are forever x)
they were by my side when i need them..
and i love them very much..
sorry..i want to apologize to my frens here..
im always late to reply massages..
and im not caring..
but i still love you guys =) muaxx..

T-T i wanna go KDU..
i wanna study my nursing course there..
it also have degree programme..University of Hertfordshire Bachelor of Science (Hons) Clinical Nursing..
my parents said that kdu is not good enough..
they wanted me to go ADVENTIST..wuwu
its not that adventist is bad..its just...........
i have to live in its hostel..T.T
i heard that the life there is discipline..
no going out during weekdays..
no freedom as i thought i will have in college life..
you know..3 years life like that T-T..
if im in KDU..its different..
i too get to study till bachelor of degree..
and i can have my freedom..
and adventist dont have degree programme..
i have to find it again after diploma..
aww..how am i going to persuade my parents?
im not giving up fighting for my freedom =)
but im not good in debate =.=
have to practice many times before persuading my parents..
I like studying in penang island..
i like there..when i was small..
i dream of studying in penang..xD
Izzit KDU that bad?
but i think its ok..as long as its certs are accepted by the government..
i can become a registered nurse..right?

sooooo......GOD >.<
PLEASE HELP ME